Sayoni's "Airing the Closet" at IndigNation 2012

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Sayoni organised a talk show event on coming out at this year's IndigNation, where invited guests Bian, Caryn and Jin spoke on the topic together with Valerie, our host and moderator. The audience were active participants in the show, coming forward with their own stories and sharing a tapestry of different perspectives.

Here are some notable moments from the evening, seen in quotes from the speakers and participants.


Why they came out:

"I want affirmation, want to bring the relationship to another level. I don't want to substitute girlfriend for friend. I feel like I'm being true to myself. I feel like I'm being authentic, and to the person I'm having a relationship with as well. Whether it's friends or colleagues, I don't have to divide the self into two parts."

"I don't have to lie. I affirm who I am. Right now at this point in life, if you can't deal with it, it's your problem and f*** you."

"Feeling scared and being in fear is tough. Being rejected and giving you stares is also tough. But you reach a point where (not coming out is) harder. I decided to put the cards on the table. You decide whether you want to reject or not. But it's very tough. It might take years."

The aftermath:

"She went on this tirade. I could not reason with her. After a while, she just calmed down and never brought it up again."

"When I'm hurt I can't talk to my family. I'm an invisible person in the house. They see me yet they don't see me."

On why there is still good reason to come out:

"For me it's about giving those people, the homophobic, a face they can put to it. That is, for me, the important thing to coming out."

"There still are instances where people say they've never met a single gay person in their entire life."

"It is important to put a human face to the monster people think exists. If I'm being threatened at being outed, I wouldn't even be able to contribute to the community."

"It's not us bringing the (gay rights) issue forward but the friends and family we come out to. My friend is excluded, so I feel excluded as well."

Why they react the way they do:

"If we come out to our parents, they feel responsible to guide us."

"It is seldom a pleasure for those you come out to. For others, it is a complexity."

Redefining "coming out":

"I think the reason I told my parents is that I want to go home. Being in a queer relationship means I have to go out all the time. I feel nomadic. I have to move from place to place to feel comfortable."

"Coming home is more appropriate in an Asian context than coming out. My mother said she still struggles. She's still doing research (on gayness)."

For another take on the event, check out Ian Johari's reflection on the IndigNation blog.

Singapore's pride festival has not yet ended -- Contradiction 8: Our Very Own Literature is happening next Saturday (25 Aug), with more details on the event page.

Tags: coming out events indignation


# Ande Lau 2013-01-09 23:02
Hi I have come out to family but they reject me further. I even have to move out of my home and have lost my girlfriend. I have left the LGBT community but I am hoping to returning and being to play an active role. I have done too much learning about LGBT and have lost too much to make all wasted.

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